You who I cherished the most — but you left

2 min readJan 24, 2021

my heart cries for the world. my heart cries for you. my heart cries for everything, except that you won’t stop it from crying.

maybe i did fall too hard. i didn’t thought that you won’t keep holding my hands until the end like what you promised me at the first place. i won over my trust issues and lied my body upon your chest but you still left. you left — leaving trails of bittersweetness as you stained my heart.

out of all people, i never knew it was going to be you. i never thought it was going to be you who will leave me at worst. i never thought that you are now nothing, but a stranger with those secrets of mine.

i am now broken and i have no one to turn to. you once said that you will be by my side for long but the only thing i see is a big, big wall that you built between us. you really made a huge space between right after you opened the fragility of mine.

i was afraid to write about you because i won’t have the ability to erase the thought that one day you will be as far as you already are from me and i won’t be going to be able to stop writing about you. and for fuck’s sake, i was right.

i cherished you — god fuck i even still cherish you until now. but you make me feel like i am indeed being forgotten and it is the worst thing to feel. will you really not show up and fulfil your promises?




You fill my lungs with sweetness and you fill my head with you — Shall I write it in a letter?