Words unsaid

you told me you loved my spirit and how addicting my voice is. you boast about how good of a listener i am and how big of a heart i got.

i kept my mouth shut but little did you know i did the same. i kneeled to the moon and whispered that there was no one’s heart i loved more than yours. i beg her to hold your soul higher than she would do to anyone else. i knew i was in love with you the moment i find myself chasing after your every sentence and that i thought i will die without your verdict.

in your eyes i surrender and in your sweet words i drown myself into. i long for you even when we are just one breath away to collide.

yet even if i sacrifice and bleed myself dry for you, you would still look at me the same way. you loved my laugh and the smell of my perfume but did you love me for who i am?

no.

and i knew that.

i would thank the higher up if i am your second choice but i knew damn well i never was in your mind, not even once.